So where were you? (Part 1)
And why did I stop writing? I was busy... busy at searching myself. I wanted to find what could be best for me. In this world, where we all need good pay-scale jobs, I was looking for one of those. It was challenging, since I have no experience... no back-ups. I needed help. But there was no one to help me.
I looked everywhere for you. But only to realize that you are no more a part of my life. I don't blame him. He had to leave because that offer he got was worth taking. He had to move forward in life and I couldn’t become a burden on him. But I could not teach my heart this truth, and believe me it suffered a lot. 'Life has to go on' is the basic truth, so I started looking around for inspiration.
I found it in the form of a spider, who tried hard to reach the top of the ceiling, but after failing four times it, did not give up and at the end a lizard came and ate it up. I knew this was the real story of life. So I decided not to give up; because I already know my future...it's going to end now or a little later. Why not trying then to leave a mark behind? And why should I give up when my life should come to end soon.
So I was lost in a debate 'what to do with life?' and this stopped me from wasting my time...and I gave myself a break from writing. This was the moment, I thought, and I have to do something to show the world...okay at least my parents, friends and relatives that I am not a 'good-for-nothing'. And I set out like our protagonists, to play my role perfectly and win the hearts of my would-be followers.
Dreams are only dreams if you call them so, one of my friends once told me. Go and make them real, you have the power. Don't just dream but follow them and one day, you would make them come true. I listened to him carefully. I was so inspired. I wanted to follow his rules; and I followed, only to realize that in my case 'dreams are just illusions'. What is your dream, he had asked me one day. I was glad he asked; I have always wanted this opportunity to share with him my dream. And this was my chance.
My dream...was to get a noble job with job-satisfaction guaranteed. Now, I knew if I get a job of my choice then I would be satisfied. And then I wanted to save enough to buy a flat and a car. I wanted to marry and have children and also keep my wife and my parents happy. And all this is possible within two years, I said with a smile, since it was my final year at the university. I have my degrees and my grades, and according to them I deserve a good post. My friend looked at me and said nothing. I looked at him for approval but he moved away towards the window. I thought he was admiring the moon; and I went to do the same. It was a full moon night; the night sky was beautiful and I almost fell in love with the singer whose voice was playing on the recorder.
I called my friend to come and chat with me. He turned around; I was confused to see that he was laughing. What's wrong? I asked. It's you. He said sarcastically. Your dream is to have a job and savings? Are you aware what’s happening around us? We could be dead any moment. I was confused.(To be continued...)
I looked everywhere for you. But only to realize that you are no more a part of my life. I don't blame him. He had to leave because that offer he got was worth taking. He had to move forward in life and I couldn’t become a burden on him. But I could not teach my heart this truth, and believe me it suffered a lot. 'Life has to go on' is the basic truth, so I started looking around for inspiration.
I found it in the form of a spider, who tried hard to reach the top of the ceiling, but after failing four times it, did not give up and at the end a lizard came and ate it up. I knew this was the real story of life. So I decided not to give up; because I already know my future...it's going to end now or a little later. Why not trying then to leave a mark behind? And why should I give up when my life should come to end soon.
So I was lost in a debate 'what to do with life?' and this stopped me from wasting my time...and I gave myself a break from writing. This was the moment, I thought, and I have to do something to show the world...okay at least my parents, friends and relatives that I am not a 'good-for-nothing'. And I set out like our protagonists, to play my role perfectly and win the hearts of my would-be followers.
Dreams are only dreams if you call them so, one of my friends once told me. Go and make them real, you have the power. Don't just dream but follow them and one day, you would make them come true. I listened to him carefully. I was so inspired. I wanted to follow his rules; and I followed, only to realize that in my case 'dreams are just illusions'. What is your dream, he had asked me one day. I was glad he asked; I have always wanted this opportunity to share with him my dream. And this was my chance.
My dream...was to get a noble job with job-satisfaction guaranteed. Now, I knew if I get a job of my choice then I would be satisfied. And then I wanted to save enough to buy a flat and a car. I wanted to marry and have children and also keep my wife and my parents happy. And all this is possible within two years, I said with a smile, since it was my final year at the university. I have my degrees and my grades, and according to them I deserve a good post. My friend looked at me and said nothing. I looked at him for approval but he moved away towards the window. I thought he was admiring the moon; and I went to do the same. It was a full moon night; the night sky was beautiful and I almost fell in love with the singer whose voice was playing on the recorder.
I called my friend to come and chat with me. He turned around; I was confused to see that he was laughing. What's wrong? I asked. It's you. He said sarcastically. Your dream is to have a job and savings? Are you aware what’s happening around us? We could be dead any moment. I was confused.(To be continued...)
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