Only if I knew...
It was my final year; and I was prepared for my future. Everything was perfectly planned and it was a matter of only a few more months...
Tick-tick-tick-tick... the time didn't stop. And soon it was my birthday. Yes, its always the same...birthday means you expect family, friends and loads of good wishes and presents. But last year something was different (and i felt it right in the morning). My parents were out of station, and though my friends wished me via calls, yet no one was free to visit me.(And my boyfriend was so damn busy that he actually forgot my birthday!!!)
I wished that I could be with him but that wasn't possible as he was in another city; so i decided to spend that day with myself. Me, alone. The day went fine and in the evening I went for a stroll in the park. The weather was really good and I kept walking till I realized that someone was following me. I looked at the shadow with the corner of my eyes, moving my head a little towards left. Yes there he was- a tall guy (about my age), I couldn’t see his face clearly. I decided to ignore him; so I sat on a bench between two elderly ladies nearby; but after half an hour I noticed that the guy was still in the park and he was staring at me. ‘Wat’s wrong with him,’ I thought. I decided to return home. As I left the park I realized that he had started following me again. I started walking faster; my brain started calculating the options…what if he has some weird intentions? Will he take advantage of me… I was alone and the street was empty… ‘Why is my boyfriend not with me? Oh god, why… why did I never learn Karate?’ I really wanted to call my parents and scold them for not understanding the importance of Karate. I was near my home when the guy walked faster and caught me.
“What do you want?” I shouted.
“Relax. I just wanna talk to you.” He was charming; and his eyes (I simply fell in love with them). I kept looking at him; he smiled. I looked away. He had a perfect muscular body; well, I didn’t want to get carried away; so I moved away.
“I have seen you many times before…hmm…I was just wondering if we could be just friends?” He said in a very casual way. I noticed a red colored bike parked opposite to my house. I realized that I had seen it before. ‘Was it the same one?’ I was wondering (well, I really liked bikes and speed…).
“Look, I don’t know you and…”
“Then why don’t we introduce ourselves? Hi, I am Mark… and you are?”
“Look Mark, I already have a boyfriend and…”
“Your name?” He asked (as if he couldn’t hear what I wanted to say).
“Andy.” He smiled when I told him my name. “Nice name. So can we be friends now?”I simply shrugged. “Have you noticed that bike before?” He asked me. I looked at the red colored bike. “Wanna ride?”
“Is that yours?”
“Nope but I can steal it…,” my eyes grew bigger hearing this. He must have noticed it for he started laughing. “No angel. I own it.” I really wanted to test it but I didn’t know him (and how would my boyfriend react…); but the bike was irresistible. I went and jumped on it…wow, it was really cool. At first he simply let me feel his buddy; then he was telling me about himself and his bike.
My cellphone rang; it was my boyfriend (at last he remembered!!!). I was talking to my boyfriend…and I realized that Mark had suddenly got on his bike and started it. I said goodbye to my employed boyfriend and asked Mark to stop the bike. But he didn’t listen to me (instead he shot up the speed). I wanted to create a scene but some unknown power stopped me… yes I was enjoying the ride… I had always wanted to ride bikes. But my boyfriend loved four wheelers. Mark took me on a joyride…which I always wanted. I smiled without realizing…and as if he understood my pleasure… “So you are enjoying, angel?”
“Take me home Mark…Okay do you know that today is my birthday…and I was really feeling very lonely.”
“Yes I know and so God has send me.(I wanted to believe his lie…). I have been following you for a year now. I couldn’t summon the courage to talk to you but today I felt the urge… I like you angel… and I know that you have a boyfriend.”
I didn’t know what to say. He asked me to hold him from the back. I didn’t want to but he was riding really fast. I put my arms around his waist; he pulled his brake (I think not intentionally…). I was close to him; I pulled away myself. I loved my boyfriend and I never wanted a parallel relationship. I never had any…but this guy had something special about him. He was different…it was as if he was really send by an angel to cheer me up on my birthday. One hour later he left me home and said goodbye with the promise to meet me the next day. I smiled and deep in my heart I knew that I would never meet him again.but the next day I was proved wrong; he actually came and met me at my University. I couldn’t believe that he was my senior… I never noticed him before. I felt embarrassed.
The days passed and we became really good friends (I guess more than friends…)
I realized some relations are made in heaven and this was one of them…he was totally like me. Years passed and suddenly everything changed one day. He proposed to me in front of my boyfriend! And without thinking twice I said yes!!!
We stared at each other for sometime and then started laughing. My ex-boyfriend thought that, we had gone crazy and I am sure he was mad at me (after a life almost planned with him; one fine evening I actually said 'yes' to another man whom I knew only for some years...what could it be but madness?)
But, this time I decided not to leave my future in the hands if destiny; and instead of waiting (I had already seen what waiting had done...I actually decided to marry another man!!!) we got married the next month. And now we are living happily with three kids… Sometimes sitting at my window I wonder, only if I knew that life could change so drastically, that, even after planning the future it could change completely, then I would have never bothered to plan it…and I have understood the reality that we, humans don't plan anything; instead we act as our destiny is written (like a script!).
"So guys, do decide for yourself but it's better that we never plan but live life each day as it comes to us revealing the mysteries of the unknown...," I said to my University students after taking a serious class on 'Life and Relationship related to Literature'.
Tick-tick-tick-tick... the time didn't stop. And soon it was my birthday. Yes, its always the same...birthday means you expect family, friends and loads of good wishes and presents. But last year something was different (and i felt it right in the morning). My parents were out of station, and though my friends wished me via calls, yet no one was free to visit me.(And my boyfriend was so damn busy that he actually forgot my birthday!!!)
I wished that I could be with him but that wasn't possible as he was in another city; so i decided to spend that day with myself. Me, alone. The day went fine and in the evening I went for a stroll in the park. The weather was really good and I kept walking till I realized that someone was following me. I looked at the shadow with the corner of my eyes, moving my head a little towards left. Yes there he was- a tall guy (about my age), I couldn’t see his face clearly. I decided to ignore him; so I sat on a bench between two elderly ladies nearby; but after half an hour I noticed that the guy was still in the park and he was staring at me. ‘Wat’s wrong with him,’ I thought. I decided to return home. As I left the park I realized that he had started following me again. I started walking faster; my brain started calculating the options…what if he has some weird intentions? Will he take advantage of me… I was alone and the street was empty… ‘Why is my boyfriend not with me? Oh god, why… why did I never learn Karate?’ I really wanted to call my parents and scold them for not understanding the importance of Karate. I was near my home when the guy walked faster and caught me.
“What do you want?” I shouted.
“Relax. I just wanna talk to you.” He was charming; and his eyes (I simply fell in love with them). I kept looking at him; he smiled. I looked away. He had a perfect muscular body; well, I didn’t want to get carried away; so I moved away.
“I have seen you many times before…hmm…I was just wondering if we could be just friends?” He said in a very casual way. I noticed a red colored bike parked opposite to my house. I realized that I had seen it before. ‘Was it the same one?’ I was wondering (well, I really liked bikes and speed…).
“Look, I don’t know you and…”
“Then why don’t we introduce ourselves? Hi, I am Mark… and you are?”
“Look Mark, I already have a boyfriend and…”
“Your name?” He asked (as if he couldn’t hear what I wanted to say).
“Andy.” He smiled when I told him my name. “Nice name. So can we be friends now?”I simply shrugged. “Have you noticed that bike before?” He asked me. I looked at the red colored bike. “Wanna ride?”
“Is that yours?”
“Nope but I can steal it…,” my eyes grew bigger hearing this. He must have noticed it for he started laughing. “No angel. I own it.” I really wanted to test it but I didn’t know him (and how would my boyfriend react…); but the bike was irresistible. I went and jumped on it…wow, it was really cool. At first he simply let me feel his buddy; then he was telling me about himself and his bike.
My cellphone rang; it was my boyfriend (at last he remembered!!!). I was talking to my boyfriend…and I realized that Mark had suddenly got on his bike and started it. I said goodbye to my employed boyfriend and asked Mark to stop the bike. But he didn’t listen to me (instead he shot up the speed). I wanted to create a scene but some unknown power stopped me… yes I was enjoying the ride… I had always wanted to ride bikes. But my boyfriend loved four wheelers. Mark took me on a joyride…which I always wanted. I smiled without realizing…and as if he understood my pleasure… “So you are enjoying, angel?”
“Take me home Mark…Okay do you know that today is my birthday…and I was really feeling very lonely.”
“Yes I know and so God has send me.(I wanted to believe his lie…). I have been following you for a year now. I couldn’t summon the courage to talk to you but today I felt the urge… I like you angel… and I know that you have a boyfriend.”
I didn’t know what to say. He asked me to hold him from the back. I didn’t want to but he was riding really fast. I put my arms around his waist; he pulled his brake (I think not intentionally…). I was close to him; I pulled away myself. I loved my boyfriend and I never wanted a parallel relationship. I never had any…but this guy had something special about him. He was different…it was as if he was really send by an angel to cheer me up on my birthday. One hour later he left me home and said goodbye with the promise to meet me the next day. I smiled and deep in my heart I knew that I would never meet him again.but the next day I was proved wrong; he actually came and met me at my University. I couldn’t believe that he was my senior… I never noticed him before. I felt embarrassed.
The days passed and we became really good friends (I guess more than friends…)
I realized some relations are made in heaven and this was one of them…he was totally like me. Years passed and suddenly everything changed one day. He proposed to me in front of my boyfriend! And without thinking twice I said yes!!!
We stared at each other for sometime and then started laughing. My ex-boyfriend thought that, we had gone crazy and I am sure he was mad at me (after a life almost planned with him; one fine evening I actually said 'yes' to another man whom I knew only for some years...what could it be but madness?)
But, this time I decided not to leave my future in the hands if destiny; and instead of waiting (I had already seen what waiting had done...I actually decided to marry another man!!!) we got married the next month. And now we are living happily with three kids… Sometimes sitting at my window I wonder, only if I knew that life could change so drastically, that, even after planning the future it could change completely, then I would have never bothered to plan it…and I have understood the reality that we, humans don't plan anything; instead we act as our destiny is written (like a script!).
"So guys, do decide for yourself but it's better that we never plan but live life each day as it comes to us revealing the mysteries of the unknown...," I said to my University students after taking a serious class on 'Life and Relationship related to Literature'.
ending ta ektu abrupt laglo...obviously its mah feeln..
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